Sad luh. Recently some one close to mi keep using crude words on mi. Not knowing that by doing so, he is hurting my feeling. Haiis. Mabe I deserved it luh. I already lose all my dignity as a woman. So I am just going to put wif wif all this shit till he feels better within. I am worned out be it mentally or physically. Think few days back cried too much no can feel tat I get tired very easily. Why dun I just die? Mabe I will feel better. Some dogshits think tat I am trying to threaten baby lahx. Cb. Damn pissed. Nabeii. If 1 dae I die I sure go haunt her everynite. Knn. She thinks tat I m some kind of joker or attention seeker izzit? Forget it. Mabe I shld try to face everything out in the right way instead of torturing myself. Depression is no excuses for my stupidity.. Shld try to be mre mature and stop harming my body le. No use bahx. Hey come'on gal, grow up please.. Haiis. Hmm..been thinking bout many things nowadays, when it is time to let go I will let go. Afterall, I dun deserve his love. Mabe I shld not hv beg him for patch. It is only going to hurt both of us in the end. His mum sure hv a bad impression against mi le. And I must face her as if nth happen at all. You guys noe how it felts? As if u owe ppl a million apologies but U gt no face to tell her face to face. This is mi and ben problem aniwae. But I realli dun wish to step into his hse again. I dunwanna see his parents animre. I'm fucking stress. So tired of acting like I-DUN-GIVE-A-SHIT attitude. I wan let go of him, but I knew tat I will regret..wad to do????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????


Oh ya. Just met Jing Fang. She quit working at DANO le. Going to work at Best Denki on wed. Haas, kinda miss her. Rmb-ed we last time see each other not happy de almost fight oso. But ended up being sucha gd fren. Fate is miraculous sometimes.

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